Saturday, August 27, 2005

RIGHT BRAIN ::: I Know Jack

About eight years ago, while rummaging through the discount pile at National, I found a book by C.S. Lewis called "Mere Christianity". He was often quoted on Sundays during the message at CCF so I already had an idea on what he mostly wrote. After reading the first few pages, I knew I had to take it home since it was priced at around Php80 only. I did not expect that it will be one my most treasured discoveries.

There has never been, in my opinion, a more sensible exposition on my faith than "Mere Christianity". It spoke to me as if both sides of my mental windshield were being wiped clean of streaks and grime. Whenever I go back and skim through the text, it almost gives me the feeling of coming home--soppy as that may be. I remember how parts of the text made so much sense that I would literally open my eyes wide in amazement; I was astonished at how I didn't see these truths before, especially when Lewis's points were clear and plain as day. From that point on, C.S. Lewis became one of my favorite writers of all time. I began searching for his work everywhere.

Reprints of "Mere Christianity" now go for Php300 and above for trade paperback editions. I suppose many more people are discovering the significance of this piece of literature. My slim copy of "Out of the Silent Planet," part one Lewis's sci-fi trilogy, set me back about Php50 when I got it in 1998. Today, you will need about five times (or more) that amount to buy the exact same edition.

This past week, I caught the trailer to "The Chronicles of Narnia: The Lion, the Witch, and the Wardrobe" being shown at SM Bacoor's atrium. Obviously, I knew they were making this movie and that it's supposed to open this Christmas (January for us) but I have decided to isolate myself from all the marketing lest it takes even a whiff off the surprise and magic, if that's even possible. It would have been impossible to avoid the promotions. Anyway, I didn't pay much attention to whatever was playing on the huge TV until I saw the opening scenes with a boy counting off for a game of hide and seek. I knew what it was and, almost magnetically, I walked closer to the TV quickly, slowly being overwhelmed. It truly is a strange feeling to see a book you've read become a movie. I didn't have enough skin for my goose bumps. "This Christmas" flashed on the screen interspersed with swooping landscape scenes. My gosh, it even has the same opening spiel as "Fellowship": "This Christmas, the most incredible tale..." Now, of course, I can't wait to see the whole movie! I wonder if Lewis ever thought this would happen or if he had similar apprehensions about his work being adapted into film just as his bestfriend Tolkien had with "Lord of the Rings". I wonder what kind of discourse these two scholars are having now.

When the "Lord of the Rings: Return of the King" end credits rolled, I sat in the theatre as my eyes welled up, not only for the remarkable achievement, but also (and more) for the last goodbye I bade to that experience. I suppose that coincided with the last scene at the Grey Havens, oddly enough. Jeff Buckley should be singing in your head right about now. The equally piercing Annie Lennox theme song that played helped instigate the sense of loss. There was not going to be a 'next installment'. It was all over. "Harry Potter fans should wave their swizzlesticks in glee. They'll finally have the holiday box office instead of being moved to the following Summer in order to prevent people from seeing the blatant similarities," I snickered.

I'm glad I'm wrong.

No doubt, when "Narnia" opens, it will be number one on the U.S. box office for, at the very least, four weeks. People will be making a beeline to C.S. Lewis sections in bookstores, if not already. They've reprinted several of his books and are prominently displayed in your face when you walk into Powerbooks. I can't be happier with that. Also, I learned, albeit late, that Disney will make movies of all seven books. Douglas Gresham, Jack's stepson, who visited the country some six years ago and gave a talk about the professor, is co-producing the films. The movie was shot on location in New Zealand. New Zealand! That's it. I'm moving there. I don't care if sheep outnumber people. There's really no difference.

Tuesday, August 23, 2005

RIGHT BRAIN ::: Laughing with the Tabon Man

Your bungling idiot strikes again, this time getting my SIM card blocked while attempting to put a PIN code. Of course, I have no idea where I stashed the piece of paper containing the unblocking key--I've never needed it. Trust me, if I had the slightest idea on how remarkably inept I were to become these past few months, I would have carried it with me to the ends of the earth. Instead, I'm left with a SIM card loaded with 300 credits no one will ever make use of, just when I'm expecting important calls and texts from all over. Everytime I look at my cell, I feel like breaking down. I hope people still know how to use a regular telephone and contact me just the same.

But there still is email, right? Wrong. I've concluded that employees only use this medium now for reprimanding and forwarding jokes or inspirational (?) poppycock. Even so, I can't go through one day without checking email. I, too, get jumpy if i don't get to review messages daily. Mistulang* ako'y namundok nang isang taon kung gayon. I'm reminded of something mentioned from a not-so-long-ago TV drama called Now and Again: man has existed for millions of years without the Internet that it's pathetic how we who live in the present liken downtime to the end of the world. Just ask any of my former Earthlink tech support buddies!

All this got me thinking of the early Pinoy, the Tabon Man. He would probably shake his head at our impersonal ways, relying on electronics to fellowship with one another when a simple wave of the hand or smile would do. Either that or snicker at how we are beside ourselves when something as easily replacable as a SIM card causes us trouble. Yep, if Tabon man were to write a book about his modern day kalahi, he would call it something like "The Future's Oxymorons".


*as if, like, comparable to

Monday, August 22, 2005

RIGHT BRAIN ::: When you don't care about Monday

Here I am, pounding away at the keyboard at 2 o'clock in the morning.

Joey's turning 20 on the 25th and has invited the TPI mob for a birthday bash next Saturday. A friend of his is letting us use their house in Antipolo, which sits on a hillside overlooking the city, for a whole day of tomfoolery. Word to the wise: you're either filthy rich or completely out of your mind to let the Tropang Puyat take over your house like that. But I'm not complaining. Instead, I'm gonna go believing they're indeed 'filthy rich' as it makes thrashing that crib easier. Not that we're planning to (because we're such righteous kids) but ya never know!

I'm hoping Teletech will follow through with what they told me last week. They said my check will be released this week and I couldn't have needed it any other time. Those credit card collectors have been relentless in pursuit; even threatening me with legal innuendo. Truth be told, although my credit history has been slightly erratic, that's how they make huge money off me anyway. I'm also unfazed by it because I was a collections agent myself--for Fifth Third (turd) Bank--so I know these guys just mouth off whatever spiels they were trained to use and move on to the next delinquent account. They can check my payment history and see I've been foolishly paying them on time since getting the stupid visa. Anyway, no point wallowing in self-pity.

So here's to a new week upon us. I pray we get the retribution we deserve.

Saturday, August 20, 2005

RIGHT BRAIN ::: Cabin Fever

There's no way to justify this mess anymore. I'm calling it as I see it: these people make me crazy. I gotta get out of this house, these people, this country! The thoughtless things they do and do not do around here leave me exasperated, everyday. If there was any opportunity for me to get away from them, I'd take it. Otherwise, I'm going to either end up in some shabby psych ward or become one of those taong grasa wandering along Taft Avenue with no underwear.

I know what I'll do. I'll go up north, by myself. Baguio maybe. I just know one more day spent with these barnacles is a whole year off my lifespan!

Tuesday, August 16, 2005

RIGHT BRAIN ::: Ever the Whiner

So Jonas tells me he's thinking about auditioning for this talent search organized by a TV network. I say go get 'em! He's had his eye on that freakin' contest from the very beginning anyway. Plus, those people they pick to go on the show? Total losers. I think that if you have enough gall to be chastised on-air for your lack of talent, they'll put you in the running. Anyway, I hope he does show up and try out. Jonas has everything they could ever want or need in a teen idol. Jonas's blog is angakingpaa.blogspot.com. Do see!

In other developments, this morning I got a letter from one of the companies I interviewed with and, as expected, it was just to tell me "thanks but we've found our guy." Obviously, that's not how it was worded but you get the idea. I found it unusual that they would take the time to send out that missive. HRDs usually just email or text the bad (or great) news but this Program Director actually signed the letter which leads me to believe it was somewhat personalized. Big deal. A lot of difference that made when it seems my career is at a stand still. To tell you the truth, I wasn't even sure I really wanted that Account Executive job which, as she told me, involved mainly telemarketing. Now, there's a word I truly eschew.

So why did I bother? Primarily because Alan Ranch (good friend and a DJ from 103.5 Klite) recommended me to one of the bosses there. Second was the pay and third was the prospect of working in the daytime. I remember being daftly chipper when I walked into the PD's office -- owing largely to the fact that I didn't know the job involved selling. Spring in my step? Check! Firm handshake and bright smile? Check! Voice projection? Double check! Eventually, midway through the interview, she revealed that it was indeed a telemarketing position. Ugh! It was pretty much downhill from there. Although I was able to maintain enthusiasm and eloquence up to the end of our session, at the back of my mind was a different story. On the way home, I asked myself, "Do I really want to do this job selling heaven knows what, much less, talking to customers on the phone, again?" I already knew the answer but still kept on thinking that I owed it to myself to atleast give it a try.

And there on this morning's letter was my result.

To be honest, I'm quite relieved I didn't get the job. I don't know how long, if at all, I would have been able to remain doing that type of thing. I knew that application was doomed from the start. It's interesting how I was ahead of myself and was actually right.

Tuesday, August 09, 2005

RIGHT BRAIN ::: Psyched To Be Here!

Another day draws to a close. I have no idea what to post right now so I'll take the cue from Jonas and put some song lyrics. This song was voted by critics of Q Magazine to be the best song ever recorded as of November 2003.

One
Is it getting better, or do you feel the same?
Will it make it easier on you, now you got someone to blame?
You say one love, one life, when it's one need in the night.
One love, we get to share it
Leaves you baby if you don't care for it.

Did I disappoint you or leave a bad taste in your mouth?
You act like you never had love and you want me to go without.
Well, it's too late tonight to drag the past out into the light.
We're one, but we're not the same.
We get to carry each other, carry each other... one

Have you come here for forgiveness,
Have you come to raise the dead
Have you come here to play Jesus to the lepers in your head
Did I ask too much, more than a lot
You gave me nothing, now it's all I got.
We're one, but we're not the same.
Well, we hurt each other, then we do it again.

You say love is a temple, love a higher law
Love is a temple, love the higher law.
You ask me to enter, but then you make me crawl
And I can't be holding on to what you got, when all you got is hurt.

One love, one blood, one life, you got to do what you should.
One life with each other: sisters, brothers.
One life, but we're not the same.
We get to carry each other, carry each other.
One, one.

Monday, August 08, 2005

RIGHT BRAIN ::: Rainy Chilly Monday Afternoon

All this rain is making my eyes watery and inducing sleep. I have no choice but to keep waiting for the day to end anyway. In the meantime, my final pay from Teletech should tide me over to whenever I start working again. Man, I could have been making some kind of money right now if I had gone with HSBC two months ago! Shaos told me last week that one former FTB agent applied for a csr job at HSBC, got hired, and started work--all in a week's time. And get this, he was offered Php21K base pay! See, this is why I wonder how some big call centers like PeopleSupport and Teletech (the two I've worked in so far) are on the cheap when it comes to compensation for experienced agents. Don't they know that companies like HSBC rake in the benefits from the seasoned talent pool who've resigned.

Friday, August 05, 2005

I decided to relaunch this blog after abandoning it three years ago. There's no particular reason in my doing so. I guess I'd like another place to share my writings, perhaps one with more color, I don't know. Speaking of writing, I've just read the posts from 2002 and I have to say I am really embarassed with all the mistakes I found in them. Some are just plain ridiculous. That doesn't mean that my future work will be free from errors but I have learned a few things since 2002.